Last week, my right shoulder area starting feeling a little off. It's difficult to describe the exact issue...it wasn’t numb or tingly, two common (and almost daily) symptoms of my MS. I could sense that area being touched; it just didn’t feel like my shoulder. The best way to describe it would be to say that it felt desensitized to my touch.
If I felt an itch in that area, I could scratch for hours and still find no relief. Slowly, this (lack of) sensation has spread to the rest of my arm, all the way to my fingertips. Over the past week, I’ve had this hard to explain “force field” around my arm.
My hand and arm are still operational but they're irritant to the touch, whether it be my own, my children or even my clothes. You ever touch the surface of something...perhaps something stainless steel (like a refrigerator) or your fingers rub against the chalkboard the wrong way...and it sends a chill through your body? My arm is that chalkboard and the chills are a persistent melody played throughout the day.
There is little control in the world of MS. But that doesn’t mean I don’t try. All week, I’ve constantly been opening and closing my right hand, trying to keep the circulation open. Yes, it’s silly but that’s my way of telling my right arm to keep fighting the good fight. Don’t give in to this disease; my competitive spirit refuses anything less.
So as I sit her in the infusion suite, getting my latest IVIG treatment, I’m worried my neurologist will recommend another steroid treatment….maybe this is the start of another relapse? Or maybe it will just go away. I’m hopeful for the latter.